Friday, January 23, 2009

Getting Back on the Wagon

So, I decided on Wednesday (which is my usual weigh-in day) that I was going to get back on the Weight Watcher's wagon. Usually it is pretty easy for me to get right back into my old groove, but I have to say, this time has been painful. I'm so sick of thinking about food, planning meals, counting points, writing it down, etc. I just wish everything didn't have to revolve around food for me. Plus, I've really gotten back to a place where if I'm not stuffed, I feel like I'm starving. I haven't gained any weight back yet, but I haven't been very good at exercising or being disciplinary with my food.
If we go anywhere or do anything the first thing that pops in my brain is "Where are we going to eat? How many points would that be?" Aaaaaarrrrrggggggghhhhhhhh. Why can't I just wake up and be thin one day?
So, anyway, one of the reasons I started Weight Watcher's in the first place is because I went to Lagoon (a semi-local amusement park) for a birthday party in 2006. I was pretty sure I wouldn't be able to ride some of the rides, but I thought I could find something that would accomodate me. Well, I couldn't ride anything except the sky tram that takes you across the park. Boring, frustrating, embarrasing, angering, you name it. My emotions ran the gamut that day. I made everyone else's day miserable because I was so upset, angry, and hurt. I swore I would come back and ride every last one of those rides some day.
I would like for that day to be this year. I'm not sure if I can do it. But, each time I thought of eating something bad today, the word "Lagoon" flashed in my head. And I stopped. Hopefully this is a good sign.

9 comments:

Tiffany said...

You can do it Shelly. It's so hard and you're doing so good. I heard a saying once that I always remember " Food doesn't taste as good as thin feels." Maybe that will help!
I got your card yesterday on my birthday! THANK YOU SO MUCH! It's so cute.

Anonymous said...

You have come so far Shell!! I know how hard it is and I know how easy it is to slip off track. But you, I mean we, :) are doing the right thing!!! We are getting healthy and we are doing it the right way. We are doing this as a lifetime commitment. You are looking great!! We need to get together again!! I MISS YOU!!

Beth

Jacki said...

Shell, I KNOW you can do it!! You have come so far, don't give up. I know it is hard at times, but we are in this together and we will do this. I catch myself falling off "the band wagon" too, but I know I am in this for life now.
If you ever need motivation, Bethie and I are just a phone call away. :) I miss ya Shell!!

ShellBell said...

Awwwww.........Thanks my friends. You all give me warm fuzzies.

Anonymous said...

Shell....I know your lagoon example will probably help but don't forget positive reinforcement.

Think of how far you have come and how great you feel compared to when you started.

You are my inspiration and you are convincing me to jump ON the wagon!!

This is posted as anonymous because I can't remember my freakin password!

Kim

Lacey said...

Welcome to the Asher's blog... I'm Lacey (Lacy's sister-in-law). Something you might want to try is putting a picture of a rollercoaster from lagoon (or something from there) up in your kitchen so that everytime you walk in there, that's what you remind yourself of. I should take my own advice and do something like that. Anyway, just wanted to say hi and introduce myself.

LacyAsher#1 said...

I tagged you on my blog!!

Cassie said...

I had to squeeze into a ride once and it was horrible! good luck, you can do it, I am trying too, but i can't afford weight watchers-Bummer!

Greg and Ali said...

Shell you look so great! I know it's frustrating, but stay with it. You look awesome!!!!